welll its time for my monthly post... um so i only got 3 days left for work and i cannnot wait for them to be over... i actually am really starting to like it... lik ei reallly like everyone there and everyone likes me... and its actually lots of fun... but its almost over... only a week left till i go back too... i really wanna see everyone before i go though so we gotta hang out at least one night... but not do anything because im sure like me u all are broke too lol...
anywho... i started thinking about Terrence again the other day... i really feel like he is the reason y i can not make anything work with anyone else... im just sooo stuck on him but i finnally think this may be it for me and him... i dont even kno why im sooo stuck on him... i mean on a scale from 1-10 he's 7.5 on a good day and we all kno im a 4185734438790518 but idk what it is... but yea i asked him how hes been and he says "fine"... then im like i really miss u... adn he's like... "its been a while"... and im like do u not wanna talk to me... he says "i didnt say that"... so im like i just get this feeling... and he's like "i dont know"... (YEA I KNO STEPH THERE HE GOES AGAIN WITH THE WHOLE ::SIGH:: I DONT KNOW)...lol... but yea he's like "i dont think i should"... and i completley understand where he's coming from... so im like... my mind tells me to let u go but my heart wont let me... and he says he feels the same... and he's like "i really think its for the best that i dont"... and im like... and i say... i can only respect that... im not gonna force him to do anything that he doesnt want... and he says "thanku"... and i say goodbye... and i really feel like its for the last time... because i can't play this little game with him anymore... this whole i like u when its convienient for me but i gotta act as if i dont kno u... not even like im askin him to run down the street holding hands... not even like im askin him for anything... i just wanted to be with him... whatev... his loss is what i say... on the way home from work today i was glancing over my texts and i come across him and all i could do was think of him and then all these love songs come on and then "be with you" comes on and that is me and his unofficial song... and i dont think its coincedence... i think its faith... i realllly think that later on in life if me and him are gonna end up together... that is if his time runs up and i find someone who really wants to be with me...
im tellin u minh... it is NEVER US!!... always them with the personal issues...
not like i can't find anyone... im always getting hit on at work and stuff... im just not looking to start anything her ewhen i leave so soon... i really wasnt looking for anything this whole summer...
this song realllllllly represents how i fell right now...
i love u tooo steph...
I LOVE U ALL!!
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